Trigger Warning – this post addresses sensitive content such as child sexual abuse. Over the past 10 years it has become apparent to me that as women we need to heal our relationship with our bodies, our femininity and specifically our period. For many of us our relationship with our period is defined by our upbringing, culture, education (or lack thereof) or our mother’s relationship with her period and her body issues, but, there are times when issues go beyond as exampled in session with a client today, her issues with her period are connected to and are a direct result of her sexual abuse as a little girl.

I share with permission that my client is struggling with terrible period pain and absolutely detests having her period, she re coils physically when asked about her period, rejecting them completely she describes her blood as disgusting and revolting. She has pure disdain for the whole process.Tuning into her soul energy I found that she had been surrogating punishment for the past 35 years. Punishment for what? Punishment for her sexual abuse as a little girl. As a little traumatised girl of 10 years old who had been repeatedly abused for some years blamed herself for the abuse. It is not uncommon for victims to blame themselves. This blame created a deep hatred for herself and particularly she hated herself for being female and she blamed herself for being female. As a little girl a subconscious belief formed that period blood was demon blood; reading her energy I was told that as a little girl she found blood between her legs after an attack, so when some years later her period started a sub conscious connection was made that this blood was torture, hence the punishment that was to follow for the next 35 years with a monthly bleed. As if this wasn’t enough I found deeply buried suppressed emotions; feeling hopeless, creepy, humiliated, bitter, unforgiving, jealousy, nervous, loss of confidence and trust, feeling defensive and toxic shame. All of these emotions were locked up tight and buried deep in her womb where we hold all of our most feminine and magical energy.

My client’s abuser corrupted her physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually and energetically and all of this was repeatedly triggered every month with her period all with a sense of feeling defamed which was also triggered in the work place for many years to come.

As a sufferer of endometriosis myself I’ve had my own issues with my femininity to heal and having a daughter of my own this is a subject I’m incredibly passionate about, I feel very drawn to working with young girls as well as helping heal the energy of every woman seeking to heal their relationship with their period and their bodies so that they may re claim their power, their self worth and their divine feminine energy.

As women our power lies in our womb! Our intuition and our wise woman energy all reside in this powerful place within our soft bellies, our periods should be revered as an extremely magical time, a time when we allow ourselves to indulge in self care, taking time out to connect to our power, to listen to our bodies and to allow our bodies to release and renew while we are open to receiving the wisdom that comes at this time. Just like the moon we are cyclic by nature, we ebb and we flow and it is only when we resist, reject or deny our cycles that we struggle. Our bodies are incredible and should be respected and honoured especially during our moontime.

Healing your relationship with your period will ease the way for a smooth transition into menopause, the time of the wise woman, the next phase in this wonderful, magical path we are on as women.

Anna x